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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

36 weeks

Hi Vivi,

I realized this week that Daddy and I haven't posted a video of my belly in 6 weeks! Soooo, we'll try and make that happen here soon...

I'm thinking a lot about you today. I've been working on your nursery and it's coming close to completion (yay!), but it won't be FULLY completed until YOU are there. Sydney has been sleeping in your room when her Mommy and Daddy come over, so we have already hooked up your baby monitor downstairs so that we can hear you =) It works great!

Well, I have a doctor's appointment today (Daddy is coming too!) and we'll hear what the doctor has to say about where you are at as far as progress. I can tell that you are head down and your little botsi likes to roll around near my belly button these days making my belly get all weird shaped! It's super fun to watch you and not nearly as startling since you are getting so very big =) What has been an adjustment is the pressure I feel "below"...I'm hoping not to gross you out, so I'll just say, it's been something to get used to for sure! I no longer have to eat baby meals (because a certain baby would make sure to kick my stomach when I ate a large one!), and deep breaths are so very, very lovely these days too.

It's a MISERABLE 90+ degrees outside everyday (plus that awesome GA humidity). I admit that the heat is making it hard for me to want to venture anywhere but indoors or the pool---- ah well...it's okay, about the time I may adjust is probably when you will show up ;) Mommy's friend Holly is having her little boy, John Peter, any day now and she lives in Alabama! I feel blessed to be missing out on THAT heat...but she's so lucky that the end is near! Vivi, I'm ready to see you already! I feel like I KNOW you...now I just want to see your sweet face.

Daddy and I finished our birthing classes last week. Now I just need to pack a bag for the hospital! =) I have a little list, so I'll get that going here soon. Oh! And the church we are attending- FourPoints- is throwing us a baby shower August 20th! What a sweet blessing that will be since we still really haven't received all the things we need for you.

Daddy and I are already praying that we'll be great parents to you...great parents who need a date night- haha! Mommy is secretly hoping that the Lord provides a great breast pump so that Mommy and Daddy can look forward to being alone at least one night a week and Grandma or Aunt Sal can nurse you and put you to sleep...but we'll see =)

You've been sleeping in my belly for a couple of hours, so I expect you'll wake up soon and start your little rollin' around routine...I love to pat your botsi and imagine that I am actually getting to hold you. That, OR, the crazy amounts of hiccups you have these days! You must be really liking whatever you're tasting/breathing in there...this week you have had baby hiccups 7 times that I can count, maybe even a few more. At LEAST twice a day these days!

Okay Vivi, I need to get a few things done before Daddy gets home from work and we have to go to the doctor...but at least I'll get to hear your heartbeat. I can't wait to hear your laugh one day.

I love you,
Mom

Friday, July 29, 2011

Cowboys and Aliens

Hi Baby girl...

Just a quick note before bed, I had to tell you before I forgot! Tonight we went to "See" Aunt Katie in "Cowboys and Aliens" (it's an OK movie about, well, Cowboys and Aliens...). Anyways! Some of the crazy alien noises were scaring you! You would be nice and quiet for long stretches of time when things were very calm and then a huuuuge noise would go off and you would kick me or move very suddenly! Awww, sweetheart, I was trying not to laugh/be concerned...

Hey, at least we all supported Aunt Katie ;) And you know what, maybe you'll be like your Mommy...I can't stand suspense or horror or anything that makes me suck all the air out of the room! Ugh! Too scary!

Love you Vivi...

XO- Mom

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Hiccups and GIFTS!

Hi Vivi =)

There are so many things to catch up on! I'm going to try to remember everything from the last few weeks...let's see how well I do!

First things first: Yesterday you woke me up with your hiccups! Daddy and I laid in bed laughing at how sweet and small they were sweetheart. You are head down these days (although you can switch to a horizontal position if you feel like it (it's just not that comfy for mommy!) so that's good. And then, you got them again last night while we were in birthing class! That brings your hiccups to a total of 3 times! Super sweet little thing.

Mommy has been feeling little pangs in my nerves in my thighs recently. I asked the doctor about it yesterday. She said that you were just getting ready to be born and kind of getting yourself in position, so it may happen. I have to tell you- it's not very nice. It's the most uncomfy feeling!

You had a baby shower on July 16th that Aunt Esther and Aunt Jessica threw for you. Coco and Grandad of course helped, and it was so very beautiful. Page Daniels, Mommy's friend, took lots of pictures so I'll make sure to put a link up here for them once she posts them herself =) You got lots of sweet little clothes and fun gifts...Coco bought you a car seat and stroller (you can thank her when you're older, haha!) and Grandma Baer got you a super nice cloth diaper, passed down a sterling silver spoon to you that was mine, a cute little outfit that says "Grandma and Grandpa love me" and a diaper sprayer!

We are very blessed to have friends and loved ones that want to pour into your life. My favorite part of the shower was all of the prayers. Aunt Esther had everyone fill out cards for you of hopes and wishes and then we all sat around and prayed. I cried and cried of course! It's not fair! I'm pregnant! ;) But I truly was moved at everyone's heart cries to Jesus for you baby girl. All of the guests prayed for you in many different ways...that you would know the Lord, that you would walk in truth, that you would be found by the right man He has for you...and on and on. It was my favorite Vivi...and Aunt Sally and Grandmomma Baer are throwing you a shower this Saturday (With Lynda Poole) too! We are very blessed...

I want to tell you, the Lord has really been honoring His promises to take care of us. Your Daddy has been working hard and feeling encouraged by the Lord to continue with the training business. He has a real desire to help people take care of their temples in order to serve the Lord...it's a great fit for him and he's gone more these days (at the gym) to make it happen. In the meantime, the Lord has really been providing for us. Aunt Esther is loaning us their crib and changing table so that we don't have to get one (until they have more kiddos!), and lots of gifts have been given to us- clothes, etc.

The biggest blessing came yesterday! Aunt Sally has been nannying for a lady this summer that heard we were cloth diapering you...she happened to have wanted to do the same, but never followed through, so she donated all of her brand new NICE cloth diapers to our family. 12 AIO diapers Viv. That's hundreds of dollars that we saved. I was so excited!

Viv, one of the things I love so much about walking with the Lord is that when YOU GET OUT OF THE WAY and DON'T TRY TO FORCE GOD'S PLANS, He allllllllways brings things in a better way than you would have ever thought. He turned someone's stuff that was just lying around not being used into our diapering system that we would have had to have purchased. What if I would have bought it in my impatience? Less money for something else that God has it for. I have many examples over the last 5 years or so when God did things like this. Just out of His promise to be our provider...but I have to tell you...it's soooooooo much sweeter than doing for yourself. It feels like you get to walk hand in hand with Him, becoming more like Him and less like yourself. What a beautiful, exciting journey it is to know Jesus.

Your Dad and I have been praying for our family and for you. Last night as we were falling asleep, we just lifted you up again and the heritage you've inherited being a Baer/Elmer. We asked the Lord to allow you to be MORE, to know HIM MORE, to not be subject to generational sin in any way (we're praying in faith on that one), and to protect you. I read Psalm 139 yesterday (I'm picking bible verses for your room) and I was just so moved, not only at the way the Lord knows YOU right now, but how he knows ME. How He knows your Daddy...it is just too much to fathom. We echo David's awe for the Father in that chapter...I hope you come to love it as I have over time. This week it just seemed to be a fresh reminder...a new love and appreciation for who He is.

We have been very blessed this summer...your Daddy and I are overwhelmed with love for Jesus, for each other, and for you. We pray that we'll listen to the Lord as we endeavor to raise you (and boy will we try to do that first!), and as we grow our family more...

One last thing! We've been looking at changing our car situation...Seems like babies need a lot of room =) so we're checking into a bigger car and restructuring how we pay for transportation. We want to be the most responsible with what God is giving us right now. So, Mommy is praying for that too...I know we'll have a resolution in God's timing...


Love to you sweet Viven Kate...we'll be seeing you so soon!!!

XOXO
Mom

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Getting Closer

Hi little girl =)

Well...we're 32 weeks in Vivi. I can tell you are getting big fast and two days ago you decided to adopt the head down position so that you would be ready to come out!

This weekend your Aunt Esther and Aunt Jessica are throwing a baby shower for us and wouldn't you know, it's gonna be a baby BUG shower! The invitations are so so so sweet (I'll save one for your baby "book"), and I am sure with those two creative women, there will be many pictures of sweet theme ideas to come! I always have a hard time with showers because all the attention is on me and it makes me feel really weird...but I'm so thankful that people want to bless your Daddy and I, and you of course, with gifts. We're thankful to have things given to us from the love of others. It's really awesome and it reminds us to thank Jesus for friends and family.

Speaking of things given to us...Daddy and I were in your little nursery last night looking at what we had so far, and we realized everything had been given to us by other people either actually or by giving us money to purchase it. Everything except Mommy's vintage rocker and Daddy's chest of drawers for all of your clothes! WOW! We are very blessed already! I told Daddy that's what he gets for marrying an old lady: all of mommy's friends have already had babies and are ready to pass stuff on, haha! Juuuust kiddin ;) The Daniels (I have mentioned them before), Sam, Page and their daughter Sydney gave us a GARBAGE BAG FULL of newborn clothes for mommy to put you in the first little bit of your life! What a blessing! I hope you aren't too big...most of them are newborn size ;) I'll attach the picture of all the clothes at the end...I couldn't believe all the sweet little things you can wear!

Everyone is getting really excited to meet you. I love to hold Sydney, it makes me think of you and of your arrival soon. You're starting to feel very heavy in my belly! It's getting harder and harder to get up out of bed or walk fast anywhere...haha! I also seem to run out of breath more quickly...although Vivi, it's about a million degrees outside these days so unless I make it over to the pool, I try to just hang out at home in the cool air. Summers in Georgia can almost be unbearable!

I have been asking the Lord to give me a few verses for you, for your life and I believe I have one already ;) I've been asking for some verses for mommy to meditate on while in labor too...I'll be excited to share them with you sometime soon.

This weekend we went up to North Carolina to see your Aunt Rachel and you put on a little show for her kicking and rolling around. Thanks! She was excited to feel you, especially with being gone until almost right up to your birth. You are such a sweetheart. When I hug Daddy you like to move and kick, so he always says: "Oh, you don't want me to hug your mommy?" or "Oh hi Vivi! Making sure we know you're there, huh?" Something like that...you always seem to make sure that you make your prescence known. I don't mind. I love feeling you move around even if it hurts a bit sometimes. I am getting excited to hold you in my arms...

I love you sweetheart,

Mom

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy Independence day!

Hi Viv,

Well today your daddy is at work...and I'm here with you. You've been pretty quiet all morning, even though I've had a bit of coffee. =) I just couldn't go back to sleep after your daddy left so I thought I might write you!

Yesterday a year ago your daddy asked me to marry him. What a wonderful year it has been. While we can't wait to meet you and cuddle you and kiss your sweet face, we are very thankful for each other and what the Lord gave us. Your Daddy is so awesome. He's smart and funny and handsome (all the things every woman wants), but most importantly: He loves Jesus with a passion. Your Daddy has certain ideas about living for the Lord for the short time that we're here. I like to listen to him expressing his passion for intimacy with the Lord for all people, and when we're alone, I get to hear your Daddy pray and talk to Jesus in a way that makes me love him even more than I thought I ever could. One day there will be a man that wants to marry you (I'm sure!), so you'll want to trust your Daddy to be able to help discern if he's the right one for you. Daddy's know other men and your Daddy will be able to tell =)

Your Mommy waited a long time for your Daddy, Vivi. I dated different men throughout my twenties, but it never was quite right. I loved certain things about each one (I'm the eternal optimist!!!) and I appreciate, as I now reflect, on how different relationships taught me different things...but no one compares to your Dad. He's the perfect man for me and even though at the time it seemed like waiting any longer for him would just KILL ME, I would wait longer for him if the Lord asked me to. And one day, I hope you can have that perspective too. Mommy loves to tell people "Most people fail rather than succeed because they give up what they want MOST for what they want in a MOMENT". The statement resonates so much for me because I had my share of failures along the way. But that's the beauty of our redeeming Lord. Maybe another day we'll talk about that ;)

In the meantime, you should know, there is a video that Aunt Rachel filmed (while hiding) of your Dad's proposal to me. The video only really encapsulates the actual moment though. Your Dad had started pursuing me before he actually asked me. You'll want to marry someone with such deliberate intentions too, I promise. =) Your Dad made it clear to me after we had only spent a few nights talking in person getting to know each other, that he wanted to date me and me only. Then he told me that he wouldn't be saying things such as "I love you" unless he planned on only saying it to me for the rest of my life. And then after the "I love you" came the story he started sending me bit by bit on my phone every morning leading up to the engagement night. And the flowers! I can't forget all the roses! He started giving me roses the week leading up to July 3rd. Roses with little tags on them with all sorts of little sayings about me, him, US...and then the night of our engagement, FLOWERS- 372 of them! All with little tags...and candles and music, and our family there to support us. It was so very sweet...your Dad even picked out my engagement ring, which I wanted. I think it means more to have your husband pick it out...it's HIS gift to you after all. And wouldn't you know baby girl, your Daddy picked out a better ring than I would have ever picked for myself!!!

Letting the man of your life actually BE the man of your life is the way that you can show others the church's need to submit to Christ. Your Daddy quoted Ephesians 5:1-2 to me when he proposed...and a year later sweetheart, I have a man that exemplifies those verses even more deeply than he did the day he uttered them. What a committed man your Daddy is...preferring me before himself in so many ways...it's so very humbling Viv. I truly already pray for your husband one day. I am counting on the Lord to preserve his life, to save his soul, to place in him a desire to wait for you and to love Jesus above all. What a life changing experience marriage is...and when you marry the one God has for you, it's life changing for the good.

You're going to be here very soon. Your Daddy and I are going to start some classes this week to prepare us for the experience of birth. I am not nervous. I'm more excited to rely on the Lord and to share this with your Daddy. Pregnancy has been a JOY so far. And as of late, you are getting so much bigger so you have sort of mellowed out in my tummy. I feel you flutter around, but no more hard kicks...now it's just little readjustments =) I kid your Daddy that you like to flop around like he does to get comfy at night, hah! So it's been nice to just sort of press on my tummy and feel your shoulder, or your foot...it's totally surreal...especially knowing soon that I get to kiss every one of those little toes! =)

This past Friday, some of your mommy's friends, Page and Nathalie, took pictures of me. They took some of your Daddy and me too ;) I haven't seen but just a few, however, I know I will treasure them for a long time to come! Like I said, I feel very VERY blessed at how the Lord is taking care of me in this pregnancy...it's been a dream.

I'm praying for you and can't wait to meet you soon sweetheart...

Love,
Mom

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

30 WEEKS!

Hi Vivien,

Welllll, we're in the third trimester now and your mom is getting asked more frequently when YOU will be here =) Daddy and I are always excited to tell people about you. What we know, anyways =)

You are very awake in the mid morning when I wake up, usually around 9:30-10, and you get a little lethargic after I eat something for breakfast...you spend most of the day quiet, with just subtle movements here or there. It's almost like you may be sleeping and just getting comfy in your sleep state. Of course, every once in a while you'll move a bunch in the afternoon and it shocks me. In the evenings you are wide awake and moving around. It's super sweet to try and guess if it's your foot or your hand, etc pushing on my tummy! Your Daddy holds my belly a lot these days and asks you if you are bowling in there or something! You are quite the little mover!

I take you to the pool with me frequently. At least twice a week. It's sooooo nice to float in the water and read outside. I am a HUGE fan of the water and find myself looking at other little girl babies/toddlers/kids at the pool around me wondering what our little girl might be like.

I've been praying this week for whatever day you'll be born on and that the whole process will go smoothly. I am trusting the Lord to get me through it. I'm a bit dramatic, (haha!) so I wonder what my response will be to the whole ordeal. I am really leaning on the Lord in prayer these days to just wait patiently and trust that He will handle it. I honestly don't know how people live without Jesus...without the peace of the Holy Spirit to guide them. I guess they call it "inner strength" or some weirdness like that.

Your cousin Isaac was VERY CUTE this week. He's 3 and loves to greet Uncle Jon and Aunt Sarah when we go over to Coco and Grandad's house. He sat next to me on the couch this week and Aunt Esther told him you were in my belly getting big. Isaac said "Baby Bibie!" and kissed my tummy (to kiss you!), super sweet darling girl =)
The next day, your Aunt Esther texted me to let me know Isaac had prayed for you before bed. He prayed for baby biby and said "She kicks Aunt Sarah a lot". SUPER ADORABLE! Even Isaac is praying for you!!!

The last few weeks I couldn't eat enough peaches...but I think I may be over the whole tart food phase. Nowadays I am just plain hungry, for real food! You are getting big and need the sustenance I am guessing =)

Your Aunt Esther has blessed us with a crib for you, so your room is pretty much done sweetheart (once we put it up!)...I just need to hang some pictures, but I'll do that when it gets closer. Maybe I'll take a picture of the room at the end of the summer before you get here.

I babysat recently for our friends Sam and Page. Their little girl is 11 months and her name is Sydney. She slept in your room in your pac 'n play and I probably went it just to look at her sleeping 5 times! I couldn't help but think about you while I was watching her play in your space. At the end of the night, your daddy and I went in together and just looked at her and thought about you.

Daddy is super in love with you and has been reading to you from the Psalms. When I was a little girl, my Grandma Baer taught me Psalm 23 and when your Daddy and I read it to you recently, it reminded me of those fond memories. Learning scripture is so cool. I wish I knew more, but the things I know, I always take to the Lord and use to lean on everyday. I think, if YOUR Grandma Baer doesn't beat me to it, I may try to teach you the same Psalm. But you'll see, your Grandma Baer is very excited to teach you about Jesus...gosh, I am too. I'm excited for you to know Him too...there is no greater joy in life than knowing Jesus, Vivie.

I'm trusting the Lord for a lot of things these days sweet girl. Lots of people and books have lots of ideas about how to raise kids, etc. And I find myself just asking the Lord to teach me to be a mom. YOUR Mom. I don't need to know how to love you anymore...most days I feel like my heart may burst from how much I already love you...but there are other things I wonder about for sure.

Okay sweetheart, you haven't made a peep since I started writing...maybe you're a lot like your mommy--- a SOUND sleeper! That'd be nice for you...Daddy wakes up very easily, so go easy on the nighttime crying once you get here...he'll appreciate it =)

I love you,

Mom



Thursday, May 19, 2011

Beautiful Girl!

Hi there sweetheart...

Right now you seem to be asleep in my belly--- you haven't moved since you heard your daddy's voice earlier today, but it seems like when I get still I feel you the most- so we'll see ;)

I dreamed the other night that I wasn't pregnant anymore....I guess with only 110 days left to go before I meet you, I am really feeling ready to see your sweet face and hold you =) Yesterday your Gramdma Baer and I went to the doctor (your daddy had to work!) and she enjoyed hearing your heartbeat. The doctor had to chase you around a bit cause you were flopping around as usual! I told him it was just who you were, alllllllways moving and grovin'! I had to get stuck with TWO NEEDLES yesterday. Believe me when I say darling, I am LESS NERVOUS ABOUT HAVING YOU then I am about needles!!!! I HATE THEM! I can't explain it, I just don't like getting my skin punctured, ugh!!!! I asked the doctor if I would have to have an IV when I was having you. He sort of laughed at me and told me that I would need it. Today I'm trying to come up with any possible reason that I can use to avoid the IV. Maybe if I come in like MINUTES before you are born then they won't have time? Like a movie scene or something?! I don't know baby girl, but the doctor also joked that maybe I'll be so upset and worried about the IV that having you will be a breeze... ;)

Your daddy and I are signed up for classes now so that I can learn how to breathe through labor and know what to expect. Knowing what to expect will really help me to get through your birth without needing drugs or needing to be cut open. Daddy and I really want to have more little kiddos besides just you sweetheart, so we're trying to go the natural route to make it possbile.

As far as your temperament, I should tell you: Yesterday I was reading my chronological Bible (Aunt Katie and I are reading it in about 6 months) and you KICKED IT OFF OF MY BELLY 4 TIMES! I was LAUGHING! You are such a little monkey in there, always wanting things comfortable according to you---- you don't like mommy sleeping on her right side in bed, you'll kick me and kick me (or hit me) until I switch to my left! I frequently put my belly on Daddy's arm or leg or side and let him feel you going all bananas! He'll say "Vivien, calm down baby girl" and rub my tummy. And we just chuckle at how spirited you seem to be already.

Grandma Baer thought it would be appropriate to tell the doctor yesterday that your mommy was a Theatre teacher and perhaps THAT'S why YOU are so dramatic! We'll see....

On mother's day Mommy got some sweet gifts from family members. I protested that I wasn't a mother yet, but Coco and your Grandma Baer were insistent that I WAS! Coco gave me a CUTE little PINK TUTU for you with a sweet little hat and headband that you can put different clips on. You are going to be a little princess already! And your Aunt Esther gave you the CUTEST ballet slippers that are leopard with little black bows and a little black headband--- you'll be adorable. Grandma Baer gave your MOMMY something though ;) She gave me a pretty maternity shirt in a coral color that I can wear a little later this summer as you get VERY BIG! I was excited for the gift! Seems like we BOTH got little gifts on mother's day, huh?

I'm working on your nursery a bit today sweetheart. We're still praying for some of the last details for things you need, but in the meantime, it's been going very well...we are blessed that the Lord is taking care of us. He is gracious and knows our needs!

I love you,
Mommy

P.S. We call you Vivien...I can't wait to meet you Vivien.